Let's Start it Here

I am Madame X, I am 27 years old, live somewhere in the province of Quebec, attend mass, have my in-laws over for Sunday suppers.... and.... as my page name says, I used to be an exotic dancer. Where ? Well let's just call it "The Spot", although I started off at a different, (sleazy), bar, where I ended up and called home for a few years (about 5 to be exact) was classy, during the booming days. The girls were nice ....beautiful too, the management was fair, and the customers ....OMG !! There were lots of them. I made good money and had lots of fun. It was like a paid girl's night out ! I got to wear the cutest little outfits, chill and drink with my girls, go for a smoke break whenever I wanted and make TONS of cash all the while. I'm not doing it anymore, though sometimes I wish I could, I have more important things to do now. I have a 7 month old ...let's call him "baby X", and a husband ("Mr. X") ....(ironically we met at "The Spot") ....

Dancing was so much fun ....at first ! But alot quicker then I remember, started the drugs ! You see, in a bar, specifically a strip club, drugs are more easily found then on the street ...hard to believe I know. But in a strip club it's all controlled. You buy from there. Whether it's the staff or "a guy" ...there is someone who is the designated dealer. You buy from there, and only there. Many times it is pushed on the girls ..."oh come on just one, it will help you make more money, it'll be easier for you to have a conversation with the strange men that just want to feel your boobs, it'll make it easier for you to let them" ....Eventually everyone gives in. I did. It gets out of hand very easily ....the first night you buy one with another girl and she ends up getting most of it, then before you know it that's not enough, you buy it for just yourself and you NEVER share ! Then, before you know it, you're going into work just to do it.

I'm so happy that I'm done with all of that ! Some things I've done I regret dearly and have a very hard time dealing with it all. You'll read most of it here. Although somethings I wouldn't dare whisper let alone write down for the world to see. But the more I  post, The more you will get to know me, Madame X, the things I've done, overcome, and  where my experiences take me.

Chow for Now !!!

Madame X
xoxoxo