Is this life ?

So Mr. X is gone ....big surprise there ! He keeps telling me that I know where the door is and that I can take it anytime. I really don't know what to make of this ....does he want me to leave ? All he does is criticize me or tell me what to do ! Is this really what my life has become ? Does he think I will not leave him ? Well one thing is for sure if/when I do leave him, Baby X is coming with me ! Mr. X doesn't even feed Baby X, he calls his mother to come do it if I am not here ! How much of a man can you be if you can not even feed you child breakfast ? Yes today is a bit of a rant and rave but I felt compelled to write. We are supposed to be going to see one of Mr. X's sisters today. About an hour and a half away. That's how selfish he is, we will drive an hour and a half away to go see his family but he won'r drive half an hour to 45 minutes away to go visit my grand parents !!!!! And that's not the half of it. Child X (my oldest)(different father than Baby X) was in the hospital for a few days with a double pneumonia and he would not drive me to go see my child ! (I don't drive) ..... who does that ??? Sometimes I wish I had never met him at The Spot !!! But then i would not have Baby X and I would not trade my children for the world  !!! Sometimes I feel as though this is not a normal relationship but then other times I think 'well maybe it's normal and nobody talks about the hardships of  real relationships'.

I guess I have to go my mother-in-law is here ! YAY !! (can you read the sarcasm ?) She'll most likely be the subject of a future post.....she one interesting character I tell you.

Chow For Now

Madame X
xoxoxo